Can't seem to breathe.
I feel lost tonight. In a funk. It's more than that though. I guess I could blame it on my lack of antidepressants, but why do I need chemicals to be antidepressed? The darkness is closer to me now, the lack of light heavier. Hopelessness makes it hard to breathe, and I just don't see what is so wrong with me. "Tell them to look up". Why can't I remember to look up? Wake up, you're alive. We're on your side. Rescue is possible. You aren't alone. But I AM alone tonight. My thoughts conspire against my will. I feel numb. I can't seem to breathe. But I can bleed. I do not want to die inside just to breathe in... i'm tired of feeling so numb... relief exists, I find it when... [I am cut]