Unfailing Love
It's been awhile...I've missed blogging. While there is much I could write about tonight, I want to focus on a message to a certain girl I know. Who knows, maybe you know her too.
To you, with more love than you can imagine. Here are a few of the things that I can't seem to find the words for.
You are amazing. I don't say that as some punk boy who is trying to impress you, or some friend trying to move up on your myspace friends page. I say that, meaning every bit that YOU. ARE. AMAZING. And you don't even know it.
You are one of the most compassionate, loving, giving, caring people I've ever met in my entire life. You will go out of your way to right a wrong, to help someone who probably doesn't even deserve it.
You are passionate, in a way that is so very rare.
You are strong. You don't think so, but you are. You are one of the strongest women I know. You are so young, and yet you have seen and been through more than many people will know in a lifetime. You still have to deal with so much that is yet to come. It isn't what you have been through or what you've seen that makes you strong, it's who you are when you come out the other side. You aren't there yet, I know. But like I said, you're strong. You won't just survive. You'll live.
You mean so much to so many people, and yet, you value yourself so little. How I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
You aren't broken, baby. You aren't damaged goods. You aren't bad. You aren't insignificant.
You aren't just like everyone else. And you're not okay.
You're hurting. You hurt because of what you must go through, because of what you've left behind, because nobody really seems to understand.
You're confused. You don't get why you feel the way you do half the time. You don't get how other people can be so shallow and short-sighted. You don't get how people can act like it's all so simple. You don't get what God is up to. You want to trust, but you don't want to get hurt.
You feel guilty. You feel like you should have been able to stop something from happening to the people around you. You feel like you should have been able to help the people that you love when they are hurting. You feel responsible for things that aren't your fault.
You're angry. You want to scream, but if you start, you may never stop. You want to kick, hit, tear, shred things. But you can't. So you cut yourself instead, and the anger fades a bit, and you feel like finally, you can breathe. And then you are angry at yourself for cutting. You're angry at your friends for turning your hell into drama; you're angry at your parents for not being able to fix things, for not stopping the bad things, for not knowing how badly you hurt. You are angry at the people who dare to hurt you and the people you care about. You're angry at everyone that acts like believing is so simple, trusting is so easy. You're angry at God for not stopping the bad things. You're angry every time someone says "I understand", because you feel like they never could. You are angry at yourself for feeling weak, for feeling anything at all. You're angry for reasons even you don't know.
You're lost. You don't know what to do. You're desperately trying to find something solid to grab onto. You need hope. And you already know where it is, but that takes trust. Trust is so hard...it hurts to trust. It's scary.
Right now, you are carrying a weight that you were never meant to bear. You were never supposed to shoulder the weight of the world. Give up, baby. Let go. He won't drop you, I promise. The world may not get it, they may not stand by you, but He will. And so will I. Don't you understand yet? God made you with such purpose! You are destined for great things. God made you, He's watched you grow up. He watched with pride when you said your first words, took your first steps. He burned with anger when people hurt you and cried bitter tears when no one stopped it from happening. He pushed me into a video store where I took a job I shouldn't have and met people that led me to you. He steered people into my life that have come into yours. He is watching you now, and His heart is breaking. He loves you, more than anyone ever could. Indescribable, limitless, unconditional love. He has been waiting for you all this time, and he will never give up on you. But you have to turn around. You have to ask Him. You have to trust. You have to let go.
Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken... Isaiah 54:10
I love you.
To you, with more love than you can imagine. Here are a few of the things that I can't seem to find the words for.
You are amazing. I don't say that as some punk boy who is trying to impress you, or some friend trying to move up on your myspace friends page. I say that, meaning every bit that YOU. ARE. AMAZING. And you don't even know it.
You are one of the most compassionate, loving, giving, caring people I've ever met in my entire life. You will go out of your way to right a wrong, to help someone who probably doesn't even deserve it.
You are passionate, in a way that is so very rare.
You are strong. You don't think so, but you are. You are one of the strongest women I know. You are so young, and yet you have seen and been through more than many people will know in a lifetime. You still have to deal with so much that is yet to come. It isn't what you have been through or what you've seen that makes you strong, it's who you are when you come out the other side. You aren't there yet, I know. But like I said, you're strong. You won't just survive. You'll live.
You mean so much to so many people, and yet, you value yourself so little. How I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.
You aren't broken, baby. You aren't damaged goods. You aren't bad. You aren't insignificant.
You aren't just like everyone else. And you're not okay.
You're hurting. You hurt because of what you must go through, because of what you've left behind, because nobody really seems to understand.
You're confused. You don't get why you feel the way you do half the time. You don't get how other people can be so shallow and short-sighted. You don't get how people can act like it's all so simple. You don't get what God is up to. You want to trust, but you don't want to get hurt.
You feel guilty. You feel like you should have been able to stop something from happening to the people around you. You feel like you should have been able to help the people that you love when they are hurting. You feel responsible for things that aren't your fault.
You're angry. You want to scream, but if you start, you may never stop. You want to kick, hit, tear, shred things. But you can't. So you cut yourself instead, and the anger fades a bit, and you feel like finally, you can breathe. And then you are angry at yourself for cutting. You're angry at your friends for turning your hell into drama; you're angry at your parents for not being able to fix things, for not stopping the bad things, for not knowing how badly you hurt. You are angry at the people who dare to hurt you and the people you care about. You're angry at everyone that acts like believing is so simple, trusting is so easy. You're angry at God for not stopping the bad things. You're angry every time someone says "I understand", because you feel like they never could. You are angry at yourself for feeling weak, for feeling anything at all. You're angry for reasons even you don't know.
You're lost. You don't know what to do. You're desperately trying to find something solid to grab onto. You need hope. And you already know where it is, but that takes trust. Trust is so hard...it hurts to trust. It's scary.
Right now, you are carrying a weight that you were never meant to bear. You were never supposed to shoulder the weight of the world. Give up, baby. Let go. He won't drop you, I promise. The world may not get it, they may not stand by you, but He will. And so will I. Don't you understand yet? God made you with such purpose! You are destined for great things. God made you, He's watched you grow up. He watched with pride when you said your first words, took your first steps. He burned with anger when people hurt you and cried bitter tears when no one stopped it from happening. He pushed me into a video store where I took a job I shouldn't have and met people that led me to you. He steered people into my life that have come into yours. He is watching you now, and His heart is breaking. He loves you, more than anyone ever could. Indescribable, limitless, unconditional love. He has been waiting for you all this time, and he will never give up on you. But you have to turn around. You have to ask Him. You have to trust. You have to let go.
Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken... Isaiah 54:10
I love you.
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