What a day

Wow, what a day. I have run the range of human emotions today, and I'm tired now. At the end of today, this is where I'm at:



I'm excited about what's coming in some areas of my life, and sad about others. I'm grateful I wasn't immediately dismissed, and nervous that I'm going to screw up. I'm undecided how I feel about being called "the church girl". I'm angry and frustrated at some people I truly love, for playing these stupid emotional games that hurt those who can't speak for themselves. I'm tired of not being able to protect the ones I love.

I'm happy about the time I spent with my best friend. I'm thankful for what I have, and I'm stressed about work. I'm at peace about the decisions we've made today, even the hard ones. And lastly, I'm in love, with my husband and my Creator.



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