Warning: Transparency Moment! - Yet another list.
Top Five Things that I can't seem to get right that I thought would be easier (But in no particular order):
1. But why is the rum gone? Getting drunk is a pretty easy one to avoid. Just STOP drinking. Or better yet, don't go to the bar. So why is that one so hard? Why is it always there in my mind that I need a drink?
2. Cuss like a sailor (and drink like a fish). Words that I try to avoid have simply embedded themselves in my vocabulary and are pretty grudging about leaving. If I was a radio, my sentences would often contain beeping noises.
3. Be a better wife. Show your husband that God makes your marriage better, not worse. This is the general idea behind what a friend advised me on concerning my husband, who is none too happy about my new "church thing". I don't feel like elaborating on why, but this is so much harder to do than it sounds.
4. Thinking it counts, too. It's not about looking the part, it's about living it. Haha, traffic causes me to think some baaaaaaad thoughts. Almost as much as irresponsible people and horribly behaved kids (a couple of pet peeves of mine). If you think not saying certain things is hard, you should try not thinking them when someone cuts you off in traffic.
5. The rushhhhhhh. This one is so completely unexpected, it's got me a bit frazzled. It has caught me quite off-guard. I have, for the past week or so, craved certain drugs like I haven't in years. I was never a junkie or anything, but I experimented with a lot of different things, and I had some favorites. What's so strange is that I don't know what has triggered it, but I know that talking about past experiences the other day made it worse. It's like talking about sex when you haven't experienced it in a few years. It's not the drugs that I crave, it's the effects. That rush. It'll make your pulse race just thinking about it.
1. But why is the rum gone? Getting drunk is a pretty easy one to avoid. Just STOP drinking. Or better yet, don't go to the bar. So why is that one so hard? Why is it always there in my mind that I need a drink?
2. Cuss like a sailor (and drink like a fish). Words that I try to avoid have simply embedded themselves in my vocabulary and are pretty grudging about leaving. If I was a radio, my sentences would often contain beeping noises.
3. Be a better wife. Show your husband that God makes your marriage better, not worse. This is the general idea behind what a friend advised me on concerning my husband, who is none too happy about my new "church thing". I don't feel like elaborating on why, but this is so much harder to do than it sounds.
4. Thinking it counts, too. It's not about looking the part, it's about living it. Haha, traffic causes me to think some baaaaaaad thoughts. Almost as much as irresponsible people and horribly behaved kids (a couple of pet peeves of mine). If you think not saying certain things is hard, you should try not thinking them when someone cuts you off in traffic.
5. The rushhhhhhh. This one is so completely unexpected, it's got me a bit frazzled. It has caught me quite off-guard. I have, for the past week or so, craved certain drugs like I haven't in years. I was never a junkie or anything, but I experimented with a lot of different things, and I had some favorites. What's so strange is that I don't know what has triggered it, but I know that talking about past experiences the other day made it worse. It's like talking about sex when you haven't experienced it in a few years. It's not the drugs that I crave, it's the effects. That rush. It'll make your pulse race just thinking about it.
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